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I Made a Movie About the Girl Inside Me

About This AI Film

So I made a film. About my childhood as a boy, but with the spirit of a girl inside me.

I didn’t intend to make this little film.

It happened by accident.

Using AI, I have been making lots of clips for Instagram and TikTok, exploring some of my own personal experiences, fantasies, thoughts, and some from other girls who messaged me.

And then I realized.

I had made a kind of serialized film about my childhood, told in ten second vignettes. And with a few extra shots, some narration and editing, I would have a short film.

You can watch it on this page.

So how did I do it?

The music all came from Envato and it’s my voice, feminized using Eleven Labs and the videos were made with Kling.

So what is the story?

I wanted to explore an area that is rarely discussed.

Gender, sexuality, romance and sexual feelings as a young person.  

I was a romantic child and began having deep feelings of attraction and love for girls at aged five. Five!

I also wanted to be Steve Austin from the ‘Six Million Dollar Man’, and I then fell head over heels in love with Jamie Sommers, ‘The Bionic Woman’. I loved her so much it hurt. I was beside myself when she died on the show (even though they brought her back). Side note – I also recall how my family teased me HARD for watching what they considered a show for girls, ‘The Bionic Woman’. Of course I masked my feelings about this. So many feelings masked.   

My attraction to girls and women was so strong, the idea of kind of becoming one was a way to intensify that connection.

I began dressing up, got discovered and shamed for it, and then began my parallel fantasy life where I could fully live my life as a girl. It was a VERY powerful dream that I so wanted to make real.

Around aged ten, I began having fully sexual feelings, and around eleven I had my first orgasm. Dressed as a girl of course.

So what happened to me then?

Pretty much nothing.

No guidance.

No release valve.

Nothing.

I was left to invent my own sexuality. And that sexuality, very powerfully, manifest in six inch heels and stockings. I wanted to be a girl, and be in love with a girl, and to do naughty things with her while I was also a girl.

The idea ate me whole.

I share all this now as I am frustrated that even now, sexual guidance for kids is woefully lacking, most of all for those who do not fit narrow identities.  

I explore this in my new biography, and this post is really part of my ongoing journey of discovery.

Anyway.

Enjoy the film. If it resonates, I am happy. If it doesn’t, that’s cool.

There are so many shades and colours on the spectrum, there’s room for us all. 

Kisses in heels.

JennyX

Explore more of Jenny’s inner world: read how writing unleashed the girl in her, or listen to the Gurl Talk podcast.

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2 thoughts on “I Made a Movie About the Girl Inside Me”

  1. Agne

    Hola
    Me encantan tus historia, y me gustan las mismas historias.
    El problema es que no se muy bien ingles y tengo que traducir y eso me da mucho trabajo.
    Hay algunos libros, videos o mp3 en espanol.
    Si hay dejame saber, si no, tal vez seria buano hacer algunos?, Que opinas?

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  2. Angelina

    I listen to the audiobook up to chapter 9 holy moly what an essential sexy erotic listen. I definitely had the body fluids flowing I did as she said dressed up sat and listened playing with myself so erotic. I had my girl cock out. You really do know how to get a girl cock going. I can’t wait for my next Read.
    Loved it 🥰

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